adios amigos

This is my farewell to all=] if you have a facebook find me on there bc this is too much for me to keep updating..and I am a far too busy person for that lol=]so..just so you know we are ending this on a good note=]=]I am back to work..serving which is where the money is at=] I am getting a car eventually yaaaay and I am probably gonna start college/school in july..i am gonna go to school for occupational therapy assistant..yaaay I got accepted into the schoo]-patting myself on the back-yeeeaaahh boooyy go me!! My last day of therapy was last Thursday=]=]=]=] I plan on still going to PT(physical therapy) and OT(occupational therapy) at that unit. I’m gonna volunteer up there too as much as my work schedule and school schedule will allow me to=]so thank you all for those who prayed=]=]all prayers worked tremendously and thank you to all who followed my situation it has meant the world to me that you all care enough to read about my life through this whole process=]

hola!!

okay its been quite some time since i have wrote on here...however its a good thing it means i have better things to do than write about my life on the internet=]=]hahaha jkjkjkjk i love you all..well some updates-hmm WORK:..back to it and i love it i am now even back to serving one day a week=]=]which makes me very very happy THERAPY:still everyday all day..but i got to be on tv=]=] channel 13 about the actress that died and she had a brain injury so they came looking for the superstar here in INDY with a TBI(traumatic brain injury) --yours truly=]=] they found me..DREW: simple amazing..we are still..me and drew-thats the best way i know how to explain it i love his family even more now especially his parentals they are the sweetest ppl on this earth =]=] SCHOOL: its nott 100% but 95% sure i am changing my major to occupational therapy=]=] and i am gonna go to brown-mackie college now instesad of IUPUI i am going to be a occupational therapist assistant so thats knocks my college life down to 2 yrs which i am more than okay with=]FAMILY: i just love them to pieces=]=] i wouldnt be able to make it through each day without my mama, sister(you too Gee), aunti B(yaaaah and the greggster and their boys too), my grandmas, another sister and my zachy along with their children=]=]that is my support system=] they do soo much for me ohh and drew thats how i get through the days=]
ohh and i am going to KENNY CHESNEY again!!!!=]=] i did it i bought tickets i couldnt help it =] God tried stopping me last time he's not this time NO WAAY
i believe that is it..ttfn
-cassidy kaitlyn

heeey I'M BACK!!

Okay I know its been awhile since I wrote..but its because I finally got some pieces of my life back-I started working again -Thursday and I work tonight too=] yaaay..i also get sooo much “homework” from therapy they say they do because I was in school and I need to get back in the mindset of school so Sherrie, my OT(occupational therapist), gives me like 75-100 math problems a night. Katie, my st(speech therapist) has me reading a book was supposed to read for one of my college classes and gives papers to write about and certain # of pages to read and they come together and have given me a project to do about famous people that have a brain injury.. its crazy who has a brain injury or head injury. So I have my busy life back! I missed it so much. And I get to work which I miss like its my J.O.B. lol I used to work like crazy like 30-40 hrs a week. Mostly because it kept away from things I didn’t want to deal with because I had to work. I used that as an excuse if I didn’t wanna do something or deal with things. It kept me hidden from things like feeling certain things. Idk its confusing-so I miss being able to hide from feeling things or dealing with things.
Me and drew are still going..-well me and drew. He came home for his high school’s wrestling team and then for vday. So I got to see him two weeks in a row. Now he’s not coming home until spring break so about 4 or so weeks. But I’m thinking I’m gonna be able to tlk either my sister or one of my girl friends from bdubs to take a road trip up there-if not I am hoping I will get a car asap..lol not only to be able to go up and see him but it can get back and forth from therapy and work and I don’t have to inconvience so many ppl. And I really try not to txt/call drew so much bc I ruined his college life last semester so I try not to this semester as much. I am happy he is staying up there on the weekends well I mean it sucks and I miss him like crazy but he has made so many friends. His group of friends got a house and are gonna stay in it next year.=]=] which I am so happy for him.. it makes me smile.
An update on therapy-well besides the homework stuff the two people that were in my group so I was with them everyday all day are though with therapy-so I am left there with the two new people. The boys that’s left, rudy and brian, were not my age but they were in their 30’s and were young enough for me to have fun with them-I enjoyed going to therapy well not enjoyed but it was super boring they were my entertainment when I was there. Now the two new people are ..well ..older. lol its just not as fun as it used to be at all. There is another group and I’ve never really interacting with them but now I talk to them all the time. They are younger than the people in my group so I naturally can talk to them easier. One guy, Steve, he is in a wheelchair not bc he is paralyzed but bc he has a metal brace on one of his legs he is my favorite. He always always has a smile on his face and he is such a smart elic. But in a funny way not an annoying way=]we have “outtings” every Monday and Friday and last Monday we went to a police museum. And I got to sit in a police car and turn on the lights=]=] if you know me you would know such little things as that and random things like that make me cheese a lot!!=] I was so happy. And its so weird how much I’ve changed-I remember ridiculously easy things I used to have trouble with but now they are easier. So therapy is def. helping-and its crazy I have noticed even within weeks I’ve noticed things that other cant notice. Like conversations and the way I think about something. But I am still having one HUGE problem. My mind gets stuck on one thing. And I will be thinking about this thing for days.
Okay I think I’ve touched on everything-if not well.. then its not that important or email and ask. I know aunti b said I enjoy getting emails from ppl and I really did when I was in the hospital but I still do.. one thing that didn’t get effect my the car wreck is me being a social butterfly.. its just my wings were broken for a bit.. but I’M BACK!!!!=]=]=]=]

Me against the world..let the fight begin!!

I passed the driving test at therapy=]=]=] yaaay I was thinking i was really getting my life back and I was supposed to have a meeting at bdubs to go back to work..my dear friend tab agreed to take me back and forth from work on the days she worked since i STILL do not have a vehicle but it was really all coming together but we had a mini blizzard here in mo-town so and it was bad enough up north too that my therapists cancelled..so I am starting to think the world is just against me I am fighting against everything.. grrr I will write more another time when I am not sooo irritated!! I just though I’d update everybody on the driving thing

if its not this..then its that

well of course i had to miss therapy again the end of this week..today i had a dr's appointment and a meeting with my lawyers about the lawsuit with that guys insurance company..and at the dr. its official i have strep again-so i feel like crap..it just seems like if its not this it has to be that always with everything but ah well.. like for so long i wanted to walk without my crutches and i finally could now i want to drive so bad and that happens next week [lets keep fingers crossed] but i dnt have a car and then once i get a car i will wanna go back to work..GRRRR but today at the lawyers meeting..hmmm it went well- and i am happy we are sueing his insurance because i dont wanna make that suffer--from what i've been told he feels bad enough so i dont want him to have to pay a crazy amt of money--it was an accident..for all we know this could have happened to your mom, your sister or you could have ran the red light so i really have no anger at that man..none at all--i mean i am not happy about it but i am just mad--in general not at anyone in particular
well let me just i really really really really miss my drew bear=[ he talks to me all the time but its not the same.. its almost as if my world has fallen apart or completelt upside down but when he is around its like everything is okay=[=[ grrrrrr i miss him soo much
but on a good note-i got antibiotics today so my strep should not be around much longer
ttfn-cassidy kaitlyn

what i am trying to say is baby i feel a change-Magic(Colbie Callait)

Oh how wonder ful today went I finally found out that I get to take my driving test/evaluation next Tuesday then it will feel like I am getting my life back..that is the biggest part=] at therapy today, again it made me wonder why I am still going beside the driving thing..in my opnion I am back not to normal bc I don’t think I ever was normal but as normal as it gets.. I went to Purdue this weekend to see my drew bear and it was an amazing Saturday I was with my drew and Charlotte Russe at the mall =]..cant get much better that I had some seriou self control due to the fact that I am dead broke I ended up only walking out with jean,shirt, and perfume- that was good with all the things I really really wanted
we did go eat at bdubs up there which was good but nothing can beat the one in plainfield..i gotta represent-that is MY bdubs speaking of that as soon as i pass my driving thing i will be working on going back to work=]=]then it will be -almost-there, me getting my life back!! yaaaay and before i go i must say like i always do i miss my drew sooo much more than humanly possible..i top it off if there is a missing record i am blowing it out of the water fo sure
well ttfn
-cassidy kaitlyn

looking for a happy ending(sugarland)

Oh boy I dnt even know what to catch everyone up on..well first of all let me say me and drew yes slept together but all you ppl can get your mind out of the gutters..we shared a “bed” and covers and had dreams and maybe even snored idk not like did anything else dirties shnuggle maybe that’s all and i had been having trouble with eating and sleeping and it was so bad that I even passed out twice and got dizzy and the time my mama found me on the kitchen floor she took me to the er at methodist hospital and it turned out it was my gall bladder and I had to have surgery to get it taken out.. so I was in the hospital for like 6 days..i can finally eat again =]=]yaay fat girl neeeds food so this girl needs food its gotta happen now there are more gross scars on my belly and I have not been to therapy in forever so I am gonna go back on Thursday other than that I have been getting by..i should be driving soon..hopefully keep fingers crossed for that and then back to bdubs it is .. most ppl would love being off of work but not me I miss my JOB so much it was my second home and I developed a new family with all my coworkers andmanagers..shoot even customers I love it and I miss it soo much but soon =] I will be back but that’s my summary for whats been on lately..one other thing my drew went back up to school so he is away from me again=[=[ I misss him already and I feel so bad Its like we have spent most of our time in a hospital …poor guy
but ttfn
love cassidy kaitlyn

too bad for the colts=[

I called the BMV and my licenses are still suspended so I still gotta work on that ..at therapy I will find out more … I had a talk with my psychatrist and I told him I just wanna go back to work.. I think I am ready to do it all and I will find out if I am not when I just jump into it .. the same with school I need to know If I can do it or not I think I am ready but we will never know if I don’t just get to do it.. I will either prove myself wrong or all you people who don’t want me to I will prove you all wrong –as far as I am concern I could just do everything I used to.. its makes me soo grrrr that no one believes I will or can do it
One thing about brain injury that frustrates me so much is yes I may be mean to others but honestly I am just mad .. not at anyone in particular—I am just mad I don’t blame anyone for this .. not even the guy who hit me I am just MAD I was having everything going for me – my life had just started .. I loved my J.O.B – just started college- just got my very own place and it was all ripped away from me and ppl say they understand and you may try to but really no one does.. ppl will never know what this has done to me Not physically cause that was apparent but emotionally and mentally is what ppl will be clueless about .. the only ppl that kinda understand are those that I go to therapy with but even they have never walked through life in my shoes! So idk its difficult I am so lost, mainly bc ppl just don’t understand and my therapists are the closest ppl that even have a clue of what I go through everday its a struggle but I keep pushing by -I have learned that long ago ..you just gotta push through some things and that’s what I will do just keep pushing through all of this – getting through it day by day ..
Well on a light note.. news years was amazing=]=] we had sooo much fun at the lakehouse and my drew got to go yaaaaaayy the first time we have ever slept together=] which I cant wait to do that everynight when we are finally married.. kenzi, my bff, did my hair again..no more red hair and I have side-bangs again
too bad the colts lost last night.. i was really hoping my man reggie would go far but it was the refs not him well ...at first it was himm but in the end not so much either way its not my man's fault at all