too bad for the colts=[

I called the BMV and my licenses are still suspended so I still gotta work on that ..at therapy I will find out more … I had a talk with my psychatrist and I told him I just wanna go back to work.. I think I am ready to do it all and I will find out if I am not when I just jump into it .. the same with school I need to know If I can do it or not I think I am ready but we will never know if I don’t just get to do it.. I will either prove myself wrong or all you people who don’t want me to I will prove you all wrong –as far as I am concern I could just do everything I used to.. its makes me soo grrrr that no one believes I will or can do it
One thing about brain injury that frustrates me so much is yes I may be mean to others but honestly I am just mad .. not at anyone in particular—I am just mad I don’t blame anyone for this .. not even the guy who hit me I am just MAD I was having everything going for me – my life had just started .. I loved my J.O.B – just started college- just got my very own place and it was all ripped away from me and ppl say they understand and you may try to but really no one does.. ppl will never know what this has done to me Not physically cause that was apparent but emotionally and mentally is what ppl will be clueless about .. the only ppl that kinda understand are those that I go to therapy with but even they have never walked through life in my shoes! So idk its difficult I am so lost, mainly bc ppl just don’t understand and my therapists are the closest ppl that even have a clue of what I go through everday its a struggle but I keep pushing by -I have learned that long ago ..you just gotta push through some things and that’s what I will do just keep pushing through all of this – getting through it day by day ..
Well on a light note.. news years was amazing=]=] we had sooo much fun at the lakehouse and my drew got to go yaaaaaayy the first time we have ever slept together=] which I cant wait to do that everynight when we are finally married.. kenzi, my bff, did my hair again..no more red hair and I have side-bangs again
too bad the colts lost last night.. i was really hoping my man reggie would go far but it was the refs not him well ...at first it was himm but in the end not so much either way its not my man's fault at all