hola!!

okay its been quite some time since i have wrote on here...however its a good thing it means i have better things to do than write about my life on the internet=]=]hahaha jkjkjkjk i love you all..well some updates-hmm WORK:..back to it and i love it i am now even back to serving one day a week=]=]which makes me very very happy THERAPY:still everyday all day..but i got to be on tv=]=] channel 13 about the actress that died and she had a brain injury so they came looking for the superstar here in INDY with a TBI(traumatic brain injury) --yours truly=]=] they found me..DREW: simple amazing..we are still..me and drew-thats the best way i know how to explain it i love his family even more now especially his parentals they are the sweetest ppl on this earth =]=] SCHOOL: its nott 100% but 95% sure i am changing my major to occupational therapy=]=] and i am gonna go to brown-mackie college now instesad of IUPUI i am going to be a occupational therapist assistant so thats knocks my college life down to 2 yrs which i am more than okay with=]FAMILY: i just love them to pieces=]=] i wouldnt be able to make it through each day without my mama, sister(you too Gee), aunti B(yaaaah and the greggster and their boys too), my grandmas, another sister and my zachy along with their children=]=]that is my support system=] they do soo much for me ohh and drew thats how i get through the days=]
ohh and i am going to KENNY CHESNEY again!!!!=]=] i did it i bought tickets i couldnt help it =] God tried stopping me last time he's not this time NO WAAY
i believe that is it..ttfn
-cassidy kaitlyn

heeey I'M BACK!!

Okay I know its been awhile since I wrote..but its because I finally got some pieces of my life back-I started working again -Thursday and I work tonight too=] yaaay..i also get sooo much “homework” from therapy they say they do because I was in school and I need to get back in the mindset of school so Sherrie, my OT(occupational therapist), gives me like 75-100 math problems a night. Katie, my st(speech therapist) has me reading a book was supposed to read for one of my college classes and gives papers to write about and certain # of pages to read and they come together and have given me a project to do about famous people that have a brain injury.. its crazy who has a brain injury or head injury. So I have my busy life back! I missed it so much. And I get to work which I miss like its my J.O.B. lol I used to work like crazy like 30-40 hrs a week. Mostly because it kept away from things I didn’t want to deal with because I had to work. I used that as an excuse if I didn’t wanna do something or deal with things. It kept me hidden from things like feeling certain things. Idk its confusing-so I miss being able to hide from feeling things or dealing with things.
Me and drew are still going..-well me and drew. He came home for his high school’s wrestling team and then for vday. So I got to see him two weeks in a row. Now he’s not coming home until spring break so about 4 or so weeks. But I’m thinking I’m gonna be able to tlk either my sister or one of my girl friends from bdubs to take a road trip up there-if not I am hoping I will get a car asap..lol not only to be able to go up and see him but it can get back and forth from therapy and work and I don’t have to inconvience so many ppl. And I really try not to txt/call drew so much bc I ruined his college life last semester so I try not to this semester as much. I am happy he is staying up there on the weekends well I mean it sucks and I miss him like crazy but he has made so many friends. His group of friends got a house and are gonna stay in it next year.=]=] which I am so happy for him.. it makes me smile.
An update on therapy-well besides the homework stuff the two people that were in my group so I was with them everyday all day are though with therapy-so I am left there with the two new people. The boys that’s left, rudy and brian, were not my age but they were in their 30’s and were young enough for me to have fun with them-I enjoyed going to therapy well not enjoyed but it was super boring they were my entertainment when I was there. Now the two new people are ..well ..older. lol its just not as fun as it used to be at all. There is another group and I’ve never really interacting with them but now I talk to them all the time. They are younger than the people in my group so I naturally can talk to them easier. One guy, Steve, he is in a wheelchair not bc he is paralyzed but bc he has a metal brace on one of his legs he is my favorite. He always always has a smile on his face and he is such a smart elic. But in a funny way not an annoying way=]we have “outtings” every Monday and Friday and last Monday we went to a police museum. And I got to sit in a police car and turn on the lights=]=] if you know me you would know such little things as that and random things like that make me cheese a lot!!=] I was so happy. And its so weird how much I’ve changed-I remember ridiculously easy things I used to have trouble with but now they are easier. So therapy is def. helping-and its crazy I have noticed even within weeks I’ve noticed things that other cant notice. Like conversations and the way I think about something. But I am still having one HUGE problem. My mind gets stuck on one thing. And I will be thinking about this thing for days.
Okay I think I’ve touched on everything-if not well.. then its not that important or email and ask. I know aunti b said I enjoy getting emails from ppl and I really did when I was in the hospital but I still do.. one thing that didn’t get effect my the car wreck is me being a social butterfly.. its just my wings were broken for a bit.. but I’M BACK!!!!=]=]=]=]

Me against the world..let the fight begin!!

I passed the driving test at therapy=]=]=] yaaay I was thinking i was really getting my life back and I was supposed to have a meeting at bdubs to go back to work..my dear friend tab agreed to take me back and forth from work on the days she worked since i STILL do not have a vehicle but it was really all coming together but we had a mini blizzard here in mo-town so and it was bad enough up north too that my therapists cancelled..so I am starting to think the world is just against me I am fighting against everything.. grrr I will write more another time when I am not sooo irritated!! I just though I’d update everybody on the driving thing

if its not this..then its that

well of course i had to miss therapy again the end of this week..today i had a dr's appointment and a meeting with my lawyers about the lawsuit with that guys insurance company..and at the dr. its official i have strep again-so i feel like crap..it just seems like if its not this it has to be that always with everything but ah well.. like for so long i wanted to walk without my crutches and i finally could now i want to drive so bad and that happens next week [lets keep fingers crossed] but i dnt have a car and then once i get a car i will wanna go back to work..GRRRR but today at the lawyers meeting..hmmm it went well- and i am happy we are sueing his insurance because i dont wanna make that suffer--from what i've been told he feels bad enough so i dont want him to have to pay a crazy amt of money--it was an accident..for all we know this could have happened to your mom, your sister or you could have ran the red light so i really have no anger at that man..none at all--i mean i am not happy about it but i am just mad--in general not at anyone in particular
well let me just i really really really really miss my drew bear=[ he talks to me all the time but its not the same.. its almost as if my world has fallen apart or completelt upside down but when he is around its like everything is okay=[=[ grrrrrr i miss him soo much
but on a good note-i got antibiotics today so my strep should not be around much longer
ttfn-cassidy kaitlyn

what i am trying to say is baby i feel a change-Magic(Colbie Callait)

Oh how wonder ful today went I finally found out that I get to take my driving test/evaluation next Tuesday then it will feel like I am getting my life back..that is the biggest part=] at therapy today, again it made me wonder why I am still going beside the driving thing..in my opnion I am back not to normal bc I don’t think I ever was normal but as normal as it gets.. I went to Purdue this weekend to see my drew bear and it was an amazing Saturday I was with my drew and Charlotte Russe at the mall =]..cant get much better that I had some seriou self control due to the fact that I am dead broke I ended up only walking out with jean,shirt, and perfume- that was good with all the things I really really wanted
we did go eat at bdubs up there which was good but nothing can beat the one in plainfield..i gotta represent-that is MY bdubs speaking of that as soon as i pass my driving thing i will be working on going back to work=]=]then it will be -almost-there, me getting my life back!! yaaaay and before i go i must say like i always do i miss my drew sooo much more than humanly possible..i top it off if there is a missing record i am blowing it out of the water fo sure
well ttfn
-cassidy kaitlyn

looking for a happy ending(sugarland)

Oh boy I dnt even know what to catch everyone up on..well first of all let me say me and drew yes slept together but all you ppl can get your mind out of the gutters..we shared a “bed” and covers and had dreams and maybe even snored idk not like did anything else dirties shnuggle maybe that’s all and i had been having trouble with eating and sleeping and it was so bad that I even passed out twice and got dizzy and the time my mama found me on the kitchen floor she took me to the er at methodist hospital and it turned out it was my gall bladder and I had to have surgery to get it taken out.. so I was in the hospital for like 6 days..i can finally eat again =]=]yaay fat girl neeeds food so this girl needs food its gotta happen now there are more gross scars on my belly and I have not been to therapy in forever so I am gonna go back on Thursday other than that I have been getting by..i should be driving soon..hopefully keep fingers crossed for that and then back to bdubs it is .. most ppl would love being off of work but not me I miss my JOB so much it was my second home and I developed a new family with all my coworkers andmanagers..shoot even customers I love it and I miss it soo much but soon =] I will be back but that’s my summary for whats been on lately..one other thing my drew went back up to school so he is away from me again=[=[ I misss him already and I feel so bad Its like we have spent most of our time in a hospital …poor guy
but ttfn
love cassidy kaitlyn

too bad for the colts=[

I called the BMV and my licenses are still suspended so I still gotta work on that ..at therapy I will find out more … I had a talk with my psychatrist and I told him I just wanna go back to work.. I think I am ready to do it all and I will find out if I am not when I just jump into it .. the same with school I need to know If I can do it or not I think I am ready but we will never know if I don’t just get to do it.. I will either prove myself wrong or all you people who don’t want me to I will prove you all wrong –as far as I am concern I could just do everything I used to.. its makes me soo grrrr that no one believes I will or can do it
One thing about brain injury that frustrates me so much is yes I may be mean to others but honestly I am just mad .. not at anyone in particular—I am just mad I don’t blame anyone for this .. not even the guy who hit me I am just MAD I was having everything going for me – my life had just started .. I loved my J.O.B – just started college- just got my very own place and it was all ripped away from me and ppl say they understand and you may try to but really no one does.. ppl will never know what this has done to me Not physically cause that was apparent but emotionally and mentally is what ppl will be clueless about .. the only ppl that kinda understand are those that I go to therapy with but even they have never walked through life in my shoes! So idk its difficult I am so lost, mainly bc ppl just don’t understand and my therapists are the closest ppl that even have a clue of what I go through everday its a struggle but I keep pushing by -I have learned that long ago ..you just gotta push through some things and that’s what I will do just keep pushing through all of this – getting through it day by day ..
Well on a light note.. news years was amazing=]=] we had sooo much fun at the lakehouse and my drew got to go yaaaaaayy the first time we have ever slept together=] which I cant wait to do that everynight when we are finally married.. kenzi, my bff, did my hair again..no more red hair and I have side-bangs again
too bad the colts lost last night.. i was really hoping my man reggie would go far but it was the refs not him well ...at first it was himm but in the end not so much either way its not my man's fault at all

merry christmas..late but still

Well Merry late christmas sorry I have been so busy with all the different families for christmas—drews last Sunday, drews on christmas eve., mama’s on christmas and larry’s family tonight
And drew is finally home and now my world is complete again.. well getting there on Tuesday I will meed with my advisor from iupui and see if I could go back to school in jan. it all depends on what my advisor and therapists think but we will see—I did have insurance when I wrecked and got my stepmom to fax the proof to me and my OT sherrie ..soo on Monday sherrie and I will call the bmv to find out if my licenses are still suspended and if they are not then we will then set up my driving evaluation—when I can I drive my life will be almost back to normal..i am working on it-so it will come slowly but surely- I hope ya’ll had a good christmas as I did.. therapy is short again this week cause of the new year but Monday we get to go bdubs for our outing=]=]yaaaaaaay..my favorite place granted its not in plainfield but still the food is all the same
Ttfn-more update later for sure--i will "ramble" on some other time
-cassidy kaitlyn

gravity is working against me

Ahh its only Tuesday-- =[ but good things have been happening in therapy well I have started all my in clinic driving evaluations…but the only thing keeping me from actually taking the behind the wheel test is my license are suspended cause my insurance expired the day before my wreck and my dad is being a butthead and wont tell my lawyers if I did have insurance—there goes my dad keeping me from the stuff I deserve yet again..ugg its so irritating GRRR that man
Ahh well I have learned to just work my way around him on a better note I might be starting school(college) in jan. just so I am not so behind for the new year that starts in august but we gotta see if I am capable yet- like if my brain can take all that I will only take one or two classes so we will see its still in the working so as usual I just dnt know..
YYYAAAAYY only 4 more days till my drew..i miss him sooo much =[=[=[
Okay I am done with rambling for the day so drew you should be happy -- ttfn
As always still pushing by-cassidy kaitlyn

i believe that we can change the worl

Another main question I get asked all the time is where did you and drew meet?
Well we first met when we were freshmen Ben Davis JR.high…we went there we were pretty good friends and then when I moved to mooresville we kept in contact and I remember the first time we hung out was, which aunti b wanted to kill me, when my aunt b and her whole family went to hawaii and I was to house sit her home and I invited over drew to come hang out and I knew from that day I wanted to start a more than friend relationship with him..and I went to work(bdubs) and told everyone I officially knew who I was gonna marry and its true I do know=]
And now I call him my boyfriend and before I was if-y about just cause I started to like him so much and it was scary for me to let a boy close to me cause then that mean he could hurt me and I figured we would both be going to college and we need our own space so for ahile I was cautios but now he has turned into my best friend been there for me every single day more than anyone else and I really do love him!!!
He comes home in 6 days and I have never missed him so much and when he comes hom I get to see him for 3weeks and he leaves the 11th which he says I wont ever get to see him next semester=[ but idk we will see
Yestarday, was the dreaded 13th .. and nothing tragic happened but I was down in the dumps all day=[ but ..this weeks therapy should go pretty quick for everyday we have something planned but will slowly drag on until saturday when i finally get to see my drew=]=]=]
which could will be happiest day of the week i know that for sure=]=]=]=]=]=]

more about my reggie wayne

Hmmm lets see,since the last time I wrote I got to see mister reggie wayne=]=]=]=]I went to ricks boatyard again=] it was amazing..i am telling u he really does loove me and I asked him if he has met chad johnsosn he said yes ..our convo:
CASS: I have a random question, have you met chad johnson?
REGGIE: yeah I have
ME: is he as big of jerk as it seems like on tv
REGGIE: neeh he is a pretty good guy
Lol not only did ask him that but I really wanted to know if he had ever met randy moss and he said yes so I told him well next time you see him tell him is my Exboyfriend and regggie was like I will be sure and do that..and its true reggie cares and he is such a sweet heart but randy moss might know I exist and by the way thanks dennis, but he wouldn’t do alll the stuff that reggie does=]
Okay well therapy this week has been-eh soo soo. Same old same old – bleh well that’s alll I just wanted to update ya on reggie!!! And our love yes I said it OUR love …
This week has been so slow cause drew is not coming this weekend and I just want this weeek and next week over so I can drew..he comes home on the 20th so 10 more days;(
Well ttfn
Love always, -cassidy kaitlyn xoxo

midnight bottle gonna drink it down: takes the time away

Okay so since everyone keeps asking me all about therapy ..here it is I will answer most questions
Its like school, each session is 45 mins long with a ten min. break in between I have indidvidual therapies like just me and the therapists for physical, occupational and speech
Physical therapy is just me and Nadeen working on me walking and my strength in my left side…my left arm is working more than it was ..but its still soooo weak and I still call it Gimp
Occupational therapys is me working with Sherrie. She helps me on stuff that deals with everyday things like dealing with money, counting it and how much change I would get back, that kind of stuff so different from the hospital. Well first of all I actually like sherrie and its not focused so much on my left arm.. stuff I had to do in the hospital was just stuff I hated, I hated going soo much!!
Speech therapy works on my volume level which now I talk soo quiet and I will start breathing excercises too
I have group therapies too which I like a bunch..cause all the attention is less focused on just me but we all are working on our own dumbness, which its different with every person ..
We have cognitive group every single mornin and it’s a “class” first thing when we get there that gets our brain starting! We do all kinds of different stuff like organize our memory book(binder we have to bring with us everday)
AWARENESS GROUP: we just learn stuff that most people with a brain injury had trouble with being aware of.. I remember one class the therapist,Vicky, said whats hard to deal with when you are out of it for so long is that what was ever going on before its still going on..like if you were having money problems when you come back awake you still will have money problems
PSYCHOTHERAPY GROUP:this is with the psychatrist, Dr. Klein, and we mainly just sit and talk about whats going on with each one of us like what problems are we facing
MEMORY GROUP:we learn different strattegies on how to remember stuff
LIFE SKILLS GROUP: we plan our outtings, which is every Monday and Friday, we do whats called goal plan do review they say its what we do in our head anyway but now we say all the pieces and fill out a paper.. on all our outtings that I have been on they have been bowling, barnes and noble, and the indiana state musuem ..its just a chance to go out in the community as a group with people that have brain injuries but around other people that don’t have the brain injury
Okay now that I have explained everything..if you have a question and I didn’t answer it just ask me i dont mind
My only other updates are the fact that I can walk again ..i know aunt b already told ya’ll but I just wanted to say it again I have been waiting for forever and if ya know me well .. you might already know this how I named my car Harold and I saw this car that looked just like Harold and it made me so sad ..i miss that car so much I feel like I lost a best friend ..if ya think about it that car has seen me with everysingle emotion and he is always the first thing I go to.. and its been pretty banged up and still stood strong and his life is over just to save mine that’s the way I see it..so people say I might become depressed after the injury and stuff and if I do just know that’s why..my pooor harold is goneL its sooo sad i told my mama what has this world come to..drew is gone until the 20th and my harold is diceast so RIP HaroldL
Alright as my drew says..i will quit rambling lmao I just wanted to have one BIG explanation of therapy instead of answering the same questions a thousand times- so I am out of here ttfn
Until next time..-peace out 2
Adios-cassidy kaitlyn

as drew says rambling....

*UPDATE*
This is Aunt B
Cassidy texted me this afternoon
She got the OK from the doctors to start walking!!!


I have been so sick and just got to feeling better=]
I go to the doctor Friday and if I cant walk out of the doctors office I will be soooo ticked I have already been walking ..to the bathroom to puke and I had to miss going to see reggie again grrrrr not cool at all I do have to go to therapy again tomorrow , which I still havent went a full week this so far I skipped yestarday bc I was up puking all night Monday night =[ and drew might come home this weekend so in so many ways I cant wait for Friday=] I might get to walk and my drew bear is here…
One thing I have noticed I cant cry..never in my life have I wanted to cry so bad I watched ps I love you and it used to make me cry from beginning to end I didn’t even tear up and I have been to celina’s(my sister) grave and did cry =[ so when I finally cry I will be sooo happy that I get to cry granted it might suck so bad what ever happens that makes me cry but the fact that I can cry wont suck=]
If I can walk on Friday I am going to see all my nurses and therapists at the hospital=] yaaaay that’s right I know kristin, my PT, will be so excited ..i went there the other day when I had my ears nose and throat dr. appt to see her how well I am doing on my cruthches but all my nurses were gone and therapists and the ears nose and throat doc said my vocal chords are swollen ..not damaged and she said it could get better with time or my voice might stay like this forever I am so sick of hearing that from doctors… on Friday I will punch that guy if he says that to me he told me by christmas so I think this Friday is good enough
Well that’s all for now ..i know rambling that’s what drew says yepp I rambled on and on but at least I wrote if you have any suggestions on what I should ramble on about email me =]have a good day …ttfn
-love, cassidy kaitlyn=]

i miss drew

the other day me danielle and my cousin jill went to olive garden and my most favorite nurse evev heather called me.. it made my day=] i love her so much and miss her even more
and i miss my drew bear soooo muchi want monday to hurry up and come cause thats when he will be here and the first day of therapy will be here ..which kinda sucks but i am so sick of wondering whats it gonna be like ...hard i do know that
well other than that i miss my drew sooooo much i think thats it . sorry i will write more another time oh and i do have to say me my sister and sabrina went apple bees and we were talking bout why God did this to me and i told them that some people say its the devil's work not God and sabrina was like well it must been the devil on his way to geaorgia and you got in his way so the devil moved me out of the way .. it was hilarious!!=]

REGGIEWAYNE..randy who??

today had to be the BEST night ever ..i got to to go see reggie wayne we went to ricks boathouse and thats where he is every tuesday for a radio talk show!! the only thing i know is he is AMAZZING and even came up to me before he left to give me a hug!!!! and we talked for a bit ... i am telling you i have got to be his number one fan he even signed my crutch!!!! and i got my pic taken with him and i got pictures of us hugging too!! that made my day / life!!!=] thats the only reason i thank god for letting me get injured so bad ...other wise i would never be able to get as close to him!!!!
from reggie to drew- i have not got to write much about him and he has been there for me through everything and i know i will marry him (or reggie)[either one sounds great!] and he is my best friend=] i call him my rock cause no matter what he is there for me and he spoils me soooo much i just love him
i dont have the internet at home so i will only post every once in a while...[blahh]

You can see pictures on my aunts blog HERE.

at home

i am home.. sorry i dont get to write on this much so if you have any questions just text me and if you dont have my number email me and i will check it eventually
therapy starts tomorrow--ugh and thanksgiving is next week=] thankfully, and it feels good to be home now....i get to shower on my own and when i come out of the bathroom no more annoying questions from nurses lol and i do however still have to take my shot every morning=/ and my medicine everyday uggggggh
i think thats it idk i get on here but i cant never think of what else to tlk bout
other than that ....sorry peace out!!

just a tad bit=]

am sooo excited=] today is my last day!!!! Finally no more having to deal with this crap here for only one more night…. But I have had the shnuffles the last cpl of days ugh….oh and HUGE news even better than getting out mister reggie wayne emailed me=] he knows the business and that I am his number 1 fan I think I like him even more than randy=] randy moss doesn’t even know I exist…but reggie knows lol=] and I did do a lot Sunday I didn’t mention it before but I went to drews ate lunch his dad made lunch and then we headed out to my aunts and watched the colts there…..today is like sad but still really good I have to go say my goodbyes to everyone…..and theres is some people who is not here that I would like to say goodbye to….like some of my nurses. I just wish I could go back to nomal… like walking and my brain back to work like it used to but I guess that’s why I am still here..but like reggie told me God wouldn’t hand me anything I couldn’t handle…..my therapy has helped a bunch even when I complained about it…physical the most. That other stuff like working with my brain it helps but makes me feel stupid cause I don’t even know where to begin on some of it and then it just discourages me… physical therapy has stretched me out so much…I know I have a long way before I will be completely normal but eventually it will happen it just sucks sitting here and waiting yet working my bum off! Lol - but now I have therapy to go to so ttfn… ta ta for now-there aunt b- (tigger off of pooh bear) oh and i had my outing today .. we went bowling lol idk how but i did do it=] and won!!!!!

2.5 more days

only two more days left of therapy here at least...and the only thing i am gonna miss is -my- nurses the ones i got super close to...and i have already made plans when i get home....and if i have not contacted u and talked about it then email me.....or text me >>>i think thats it...i dont really know what else to talk abou besides i wanna get out of here reallly bad and that i left for the day yestarday- drew picked me up-=] soo ttfn!!!!!

....hmmm

The next week is gonna take soooo long … I cant keep up with this blog cause my lap top in my room wont get to my blog its blocked through my wireless- not to mention I have therapy all day and I know it will be like that when I get out too… practically like a full time job but I will eventually have go back to bdubs to make some money which they will work me aton- and I know I made the 4th floor sound like I hated them but the nurses are nice too at least som of them I have favorites up here too like niko and jeanna and a different brenda, but no one can beat heather and brenda thast for sure- I am telling you being here just sucks ..its like you have to ask to do everything even worse than school – like when I go to the bathroom with a nurse, except niko, the nurse would stay in there until I pulled my pants down and I hate being even kinda nakey infront of someone and my sister said that I would be able to roll around in my wheel chair and if a random person walked by I would be able to say “man, she has seen me nakey” sooooo true. My rule was only brenda and heather could give me a shower that’s when I was on the 3rd floor and the other thing I miss about being there is doctor mims he is soooo nice and always makes me smile A LOT!!!!! I cant wait to leave but I will come back to visit my nurses and stuff A LOT and most of my therapists- and my family has been there for me all along the way… even before the wreck…it takes something like this to see people’s true colors which I am shocked by some

THANK YOU!!!!

i do wanna say thank you to all my nurses and techs that help out, specifically to heather and brenda from the 3rd floor they spoiled me soo much and i love heather!!! brenda has been there for everything and helped me any way possible.. the nurses on the 4th flood i love them too well, most of them and my therapists are awesome ....some i didnt like much and my nurses know who they were heather,i still go see when i get chance and she comes to me as much as she can and i have faves up here to my discharge is super sooon!!! just not soon enough =/ email me or text me so i will stay buusy and if you dont have my number email and i will give it to you if you do text me and i ask who it is its only bc i dont have anyone's anymore